I Should Not Be

June 22nd is Friday next.

I should not be drinking pomegranate
martinis
and finishing that bottle of
Shiraz in the fridge so
that it won't
turn to
vinegar.

I should not be sleeping
peacefully
through the night.

I should not be terribly
emotionally
uncomfortable.

I should not be so
aware
of my physical deficiencies
as a woman.

I should not be
so many things.

I am.